I, unfortunately, was never destined to be a performer. Although the glory is stupidly attractive, I was always destined to be an extra in the plays of others lives. I am happy with that lot, honestly. But I do love music. I love listening to it and watching it be performed. I have some source of music with me at all times. I like to soundtrack my life. I have playlists I have created for particular moods. I have wistful playlists, angry playlists, party playlists, baking playlists. Once I spent 5 hours making one for a holiday, but the disc didn't work :(. Unfortunately, I am unbelievably rubbish at music. I own two guitars, but I rarely play them because I just make bad noise. But I like having them, they are things of beauty that make me smile when I see them. 

So where am I going with this? Well I'll tell you. I have two friends who aren't rubbish at music. I am sure they will be stupidly modest, but I think they are very good, and very different too. And we formed a band. A band in the loosest sense of the word. We never performed, never did anything like that. Instead we just wrote and recorded songs. We were called the Future Farmers, and must have done something like at least 60 songs. We never sent them to anyone, we were too scared at being rejected, which I am sure they would agree with. But then, as is inevitable, we started to drift apart as friends. Not lose all contact, just that space between people that can't be bridged. Once a relationship like that has gone, you can either resent it, or smile and move on, which is what we did. I still wanted to write songs, and so myself and one of the guys started recording some on our own. I would write lyrics, and he would do the tune. It sounds simplistic, and often once a basic tune was decided, we filled it out together. Adding the beeps and bloops I loved from bands like Grandaddy and The Flaming Lips.

We changed our name a lot, The Strange and the Charmed (based on Quantum Physics and Quarks), The Anand Modha Experience (based on me), and recently we settled on The Ugly Twin (on the basis that there is always one twin who is slightly better looking than the other), and we felt this band was the Ugly Twin of the Future Farmers. 

I have attached song, over the course I may post others, but this one I just really like. It is about that rushing feeling of love, and how when it leaves, we are broken, and changed. I never told my friend this, but when I sent him the lyrics, he just got it. The pace of it is perfect, along with the perfect balance of uplifting pop vs sad words. 

Recently I wrote a song called Say Amen, which I like, but unfortunately my friend is struggling with his creative juices so we are on a hiatus. I totally get that. If it wasn't for this blog, I wouldn't have written anything in months! I hope I can find my mojo for writing fiction again, and I hope he can find his love for music. 

- Anand